Living the Journey

When I came on the Journey to the Heart my goal was to draw closer to God. I thought I was a pretty good person and didn’t really need to study the wrong heart attitudes. But God knew differently, and He really convicted me of my pride towards my siblings. I had thought I was so much better then them and made them respect me by my unkind words. I would pray asking God to change my siblings. I asked God to humble them and take their pride away, but wasn’t willing myself to ask forgiveness and make things right.

I was on my face before God with my team and we were all confessing sins. God just totally convicted me and opened my eyes to how by my pride I had caused deep wounds. I cried out to God to forgive me and asked Him to keep my intellect from ruling my life and instead allow Him to be on the throne. It was very humbling to tell the other girls on my team how prideful I had been. God then was able to show me why I had the fear of rejection in my life and I was able through Scripture to conquer that fear. He also gave me a new freedom in Him I had never had before. My devotions before I came had been dry and like a routine, but now I am excited to talk with Him every morning and receive many new insights from His Word.

~ Kaye
June 2008 Girls’ Journey

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As a child, I felt a lot of rejection from my family. Though they showed me lots of affection, they were very busy with many other things. I sought for that affection in other ways, lost my trust in my Dad, and became very independent and rebellious. I told myself that I was tough enough to make my way in the world and refused to ever cry or talk about my problems. Pain built up because I had no way to let it out in a controlled fashion. I became bitter, felt rejection easily, and reacted to my sister and my parents.

I came on the Journey and promised myself I would not change. When I arrived I looked for people like me, but God gave me a team with strong godly girls who pulled me up. One night we watched the Father’s Love Letter. I was trying not to cry when my friend encouraged me to be open with God. I prayed with her and then felt the Lord prompting me to go talk to my sister, who is younger then I. We were able to resolve deep-rooted conflicts and I was free to surrender to the Lord the biggest thing that was competing with my love for Him. I now have a new freedom and sense of fearlessness!

~ Hannah
June 2008 Girls Journey

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